Wednesday, August 30, 2006


Okay so I was talking to a good friend about how behind the times I am regarding whats in for music. And then another friend posted this link and now I am HOOKED! And look at the video on the left side - it is so good! I would have broke bones trying to do that.

Monday, August 28, 2006


Okay so this a quick account of the day...
7:30 am Michael and I woke up early and decided going back to sleep sounded good to both of us. He was out town this weekend and didn't get hardly any sleep. And I don't sleep well without him so I didn't either. So sleep sounded wonderful.

11 am We finally woke up. And Michael went to make call backs from messages he had after being out of town.

12 noon We had brunch. I had been craving oatmeal/apple pancakes while he was gone and he thought they sounded good too and so we made those together. I am horrible at flipping so I mix the pancakes up and Michael mans the griddle. While eating, we watched the next episode of West Wing (we started season 3 last week).

1 pm After we ate, we did kind of a weekly meeting to discuss where business is at and what we need to do with this current client.

1:20pm We started working.

1:30pm I heard a LOUD horrible crash and Michael obviously in pain....his knee went out/dislocated. He got his knee back in place but he couldn't move from the floor for about 30 minutes. This has happened to him before but it was before he and I were together.

2 pm After I got him to the couch and set up, he needed crutches. So he called around while I took a shower knowing I was going to have to go out and get them.

2:45 pm I was getting in the car to go get crutches.

3:15pm Leaving the medical supply store with crutches in hand.

3:30pm home again

4 pm after getting a new ice pack and some ibuprofen, I am now sitting down to do work.

It has been a hell of a day.

He is okay. Not great but he is much better then he was when he fell. It doesn't look too swollen to me so that is good and I hope it stays that way. He was able to use the crutches to get to the bathroom and the pain was much less then it was right after it went out but I can tell it is still bad. But I am grateful it is better then it was right when he fell. So right now he is sitting on the couch with laptop doing work and watching the Bronco's game I dvr'd for him last night.

I was really really scared because I have never seen him in that much pain even after he had surgery that first year I was here. I almost just went and called 911 so voiced that outloud wondering if I should call 911 - he said no that it wasn't needed. As I said he seems a lot better at the moment so I am very grateful. But poor Michael! I hope that his heals quickly!

Friday, August 25, 2006

Memoirs of a Geisha...

Michael bought me the 2 disc widescreen special edition of the Memoirs of a Geisha. Thank you Michael! Today I watched the movie (again after seeing it many times through netflix a while back) and then right now I am watching the second disc of it. It is really interesting - basically a making of the Memoirs of a Geisha from Geisha Bootcamp, to set design, the dancing, the music and so on. Right now the segment is about the music. John William's did the music. He came to Rob Marshall the director and asked to do the music. John Willam's had never asked for a movie but he wanted this one. So Rob Marshall was basically shocked and honored and of course said yes yes. And then Willam's said to him "I am thinking Yo-Yo Ma and Itzhak Perlman for solo's" and asked Rob what he thought and Rob had to be picked off the floor.

They are now at the dance part and they are talking about the winter dance scene. I love that scene.

Okay going back to work...I know kind of an odd entry but it just struck me in the moment.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006


I reread this passage several times today....I relate to it in many ways. It is in regards to a character in the book, Mikhail, is saying the more you tell your own life story...the more you become free of the past. And this is a quote about it.

"It's not my story anymore: whenever I speak about the past now, I feel as if I were talking about something that has nothing to do with me. All that remains in the present are the voice, the presence, and the importance of fulfilling my mission. I don't regret difficulties I experienced; I think they helped me to become the person I am today, I feel the way a warrior must feel after years of training; he doesn't remember the details of everything he learned, but he knows how to strike when the time is right." ~ from The Zahir by Paulo Coelho.

Monday, August 14, 2006

We have liftoff....

The last few weeks have been absolutely crazy around here. First, I leave my job of 11 years.. Secondly, there was a mad dash to "emptying out my brain" that left many-a-heads-a-spinning just before I departed. Then I had to put a rush job on a couple of projects before leaving on my first film assignment last week. All the while of making contacts, arrangements, setting up my business books, drafting releases and contracts. That on top of having a number of due dates on upcoming projects that just sent us from 0 to 60 in nothing flat.

But I must say - it's been an incredible time too. My parents and Darby went in together to buy me a printer that I've been looking at - which will give me the ability to print directly onto CD's and DVD's. It's totally awesome! My folks also got me a monogramed shirt with Reflecting Time on it that was really cool. I wore it when I was doing my shoot in Pueblo last week -- very spiffy and professional! It was very cool. The party was held at a local watering hole across the street from the office where I worked. In a very touching gesture - Nicole's parents bought the party $250 worth of drinks for "the first round.." It was very touching and I am still overwhelmed by their gesture. It was really incredible.

The reality hit though when I was leaving a message on the phone a week or so ago. Darby was in the other room. I got their voicemail and I wasn't really paying attention or anything. It got to where you start leaving the message that I said: "Hello this is.... " and then it hits....


I instantly wore a smile as I said: "yes, this is Michael from Reflecting Time Productions and I was given your number....." OH WHAT A FEELING!!! Immediately when I got off the phone I screamed "WOOHOO" loud enough that the neighbors probably wondered what in the heck happened! Darby was squealing in the other room and I rushed into her art studio and we had a very warm and happy moment.

Yep.. I'm officially in business..


Take a deep breath...Smiling wide!

So it's been chaotic around here. I think my brain is still playing tricks though because it thinks it has to go back to work for the Public Defender soon. Alas, eventually the reality sinks in that I don't do that anymore.. And that becomes a wonderful, overwhelming feeling after 11 years of fighting in the mud of so many different cases, after riding so many different roller coasters and wearing my emotions to a nub -- it's all changed. It's not as though I regret my time with my co-horts.. In fact, I miss them and yet I don't miss the onslaught of cases and projects that I was doing all the time. I know I was enduring many layers of burnout - of which I had no means to escape.. Each time I tried to remove myself from there - I'd get another phone call, an email or some other crisis that needed my attention. I was simply unable to pull myself from the job -- and that's when I realized something had to change.. Unfortunately this is something I've had to deal with for the last 4-5 years.

But that's in the past. A new direction has broken out and there are things evolving in the stream of life that can really take off. Of this, I have no doubt but to know that I'm on a much different adventure than I was on.....

...and it's very exciting!!